2015

"We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time."
-T.S. Eliot

The end! These two words have two approaches, but I want to see it as an optimistic one. 2015 was a year where I met people- good and bad, I loved and I hated, I befriended and I snubbed.There were times where I was in despair and at times I was hopeful, but ultimately all the paths have led me to where I'm right now. Not as a result of what happened to me but what I chose to be. At many stages I was asked a question, "how's life?" and I had simply one answer: "Life is beautiful." I didn't think twice when I said this. I had the same reply when I was in my worst phase because one thing I have learnt is to be positive. There were times when love was going away from me, almost out of my reach but I had trust and knew how to bring that back: sometimes unsuccessful and at times successful and here I'm because I selected the appropriate. My existence gave me a choice between pain and nothing, I picked the former one owing to the fact that life needs experience and pain has an impression of its own. Friendship being tested was a new challenge I faced but again it was worth it. Family, friends, love, responsibility, opportunities, decisions, future and what not make 2015 for me. I believe I'm back to where I was in the beginning of the year. It is said that change is inevitable but I feel no change as such in a year's time, though my attitude, beliefs have modified. They are not fully established as there are many possibilities of them to change as I engage myself in other discourses of life. The future is still uncertain but not unclear. There are things to explore, my game of life has not yet ended with this "The end" but has taken a new turn towards I don't know what. Maybe tomorrow will tell me! I believe events, experiences, values define a person. And 2015 has been a definition of life to me where I came across almost everything. I saw people change, I saw feelings turning into vapour, I saw families tearing apart, I saw good and I saw bad. And this constitutes to my year 2015. So as the quote by Eliot in the beginning of my piece says, I agree as after 365 days of my life I'm back to where I began from. I bade goodbye to 2014 in a similar fashion with the same ecstasy and elation and delight.

The time has flown without any effort. A year has passed by and I have reached nowhere. There's a lot to build and rebuild. Life has just begun and the works are not over yet. There's a lot more. It is just an end to another year not life.

Sure everything is ending, but not yet!!!!

Life Without ‘A Life’

I know all of you would have begun to wonder what I mean by ‘A Life’. It has multiple layers of meanings but here I mean ‘A Life’ by an offline life; A life without Internet. The idea itself is so scary and the one who comes out alive after a week without having an internet connection has a very strong will power. I know, I know, just a hyperbole to use. Such unconnected life was plaguing me since a few days and so I have come up with this piece. Almost nothing gets done without the internet. The more we rely on it, the more impossible it gets living without it. It is undoubtedly the most reliable machine, man has ever made.

 

Let’s see now how no internet played a havoc in some of our lives-

·        The chargers were of no use as the battery of the phones remained charged up. (First time in the smart phone history)

·        You can’t even put up on social networking sites how bored you are without it, where once you used to update every single activity of yours.

·        Can you imagine yourself digging up a giant dictionary for meanings of the words when it was easy to find on the net, believe me I did that several times.

·        Google Maps- Who remembers the ways now, but without the maps we had to. Trust me it was more difficult than those scientific formulae.

·        It felt like you were put in the prison or your body part was cut off.

 

But keeping an optimistic approach, I feel it was not even that bad, I mean you finally had time for yourself  and you were at peace. I know I am contradicting myself, but come on, for a while I myself felt relieved that nobody can now call me or reach out for me or demand anything of me. This unplugged life made me realize that I had actually been wanting such days for ages. I had proper ‘sleeps’ at night and a lot of relaxation. What else do you want from LIFE!!

 

So, a life without ‘A Life’- No, no not true. (For me at least)